The VanAllen Family: July 2012

7/30/12

My baby's due date was this past week. It's been difficult because it was also my birthday... everyone thought I was just upset that my birthday wasn't "especially spectacular"... or "I didn't get the presents I wanted" or that I'm 31 and getting old... They don't understand that it really had nothing to do with my birthday, My mind was more preoccupied on thinking that my baby wouldn't ever get one.

7/29/12

31 sucks!

7/27/12

Bummed

Our baby was due today.
I miscarried in December
(right around Christmas).

I like this poem:

Your memory is my keepsake, with which I'll never part.
God has you in His keeping. I have you in my heart.
I shed tears for what might have been. A million times I've cried.
If love alone could have saved you, you never would have died.

In life I loved you dearly. In death I love you still.
In my heart you hold a place no one can ever fill.
It broke my heart to lose you but you didn't go alone
for part of me went with you, the day God took you home.

Another that I like :

You never said you're leaving
You never said goodbye
You were gone before I knew it
And only God knows why.

A million times I needed you
A million times I cried
If love alone could have saved you
You never would have died.

In life I loved you dearly
In death I love you still
In my heart you hold a place
That nobody could ever fill.

It broke my heart to lose you
But you didn't go alone
For part of me went with you
The day God took you home.

Sucks that we have to go through this.

It does get easier with time, but it still sucks!

7/25/12

Pioneer Day 2012

We had a BBQ at my parents house for the 24th of July Holiday
It was great!

Aunt Jill gave Sophie a dog on a rope

Grandma doesn't look too happy here.

Here is Sophie doing an impression of Tim Gunn, "Make it work!"

I used a different editing on this... don't know if I like it so much...
Makes baby look like she has lipstick on, not ready for that yet.

Kisses for Daddy!

She's still wearing the 6-12mo. shoes that Auntie Julie Gilson gave her last year.
She's so petite!

7/23/12

Dinosaur Museum

We had a chance to go visit the
Museum of Ancient Life this week...
at Thanksgiving Point
It was pretty awesome... ten bucks per person though...
I thought it would be more around 5.00
oh well, we had fun!